Thank you God,

Well here I am again and yes things are better but sad thing is this little storm will come back. Like the picture above at times my life in my mind travels down that lonesome railroad track. Do to the lack of discipline and proper stewardship in my life I have failed my God, self and family. Its a weekly struggle to pay the bills with one income with two income bills by the time my money goes in on a Friday its gone by Saturday then for two weeks its just hope the car doesn't rum out of gas, saying no to people when invited out, just saying no to a lot of things. Life is sad at lest in my minds world when you follow others on social networks to see all the places they go and the things they do. Then I get so mad at myself, I get mad when things don't go the way I want, or like or I feel like Im not getting what I want. Oh how selfish I am, how self centered, how much I get tired of working my Butt of to have nothing new, or just barely catching up with what kids have. Wow how small am I, how lame, how low I am.

Then God takes me by the scruff of the neck and puts me on my knees and says look here stupid. Don't ya have a house, don't ya have a wife, son's, grandchildren, job? Haven't I provided over the years and as you stop needing a whambulance you will see just how much I love you and that Its not about you, Its about ME. I say God I'm so tired, struggling all the time. Lord my dad went to be with you and all that happened was that my bills doubled, people I know are going on cruises, new cars, out to eat, and so many.....Stop HE says I'm all you need and if you trust in me, follow My teachings, My commands then I will provide for you all you need. Then as I get back into his word, as I get on my knees and pray, He takes away the anger and starts to feel my life peace and joy again.
Thank You God
Till next time;